Seeking God for wisdom — my life depends on it.

I was diagnosed with cancer.And I’m not willing to just wait and see what happens.

If there is something I can do that could help me live longer, I want to know about it.

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Chapter one · February 23, 2026

On February 23, 2026, my life changed.

I went to the emergency room after several days of rapidly increasing abdominal pain. I thought I was having a gallbladder attack.

Instead, a doctor walked into the room and told me I had cancer.

A few months earlier, my wife’s best friend had died only weeks after learning she had cancer. So when I heard those words, my mind went to the worst possible place.

I thought I was going to die.

I couldn’t eat. I was in terrible pain. A tumor was blocking my stomach. And at 1:30 in the morning, I found myself thinking about something I never expected to be thinking about at 53 years old:

1:30 in the morning

How do I leave the people I love?

What happened next

That experience changed me.

But I didn’t die.

I had surgery. The tumor was removed. I learned that I have a rare cancer called GIST. I started treatment. And for a while, it felt like maybe the worst part was behind me.

Then cancer taught me something else:

You don’t always get to know how the story ends.

Last week, I went in for my follow-up CT scan.

They found something on my liver.

An MRI was ordered urgently.

And suddenly, all those thoughts came flooding back.

But this time, I’m approaching them differently.

What this project is about

So what do you do when your life may literally depend on what you do next?

That’s the question behind this entire project.

I believe in God. I believe in prayer. And I believe there are things that are outside of my control.

I also believe we’re supposed to do our part.

There’s a passage in the Bible that has become incredibly important to me:

“Having done all… stand.”

Those words mean something different to me now.

Before I stand, I want to know that I’ve done all I can do.

So I’m going looking.

I’m going to talk to doctors and researchers. I’m going to read the studies. I’m going to investigate nutrition, exercise, sleep, inflammation, metabolic health, medications, supplements, clinical trials and emerging research.

Some things will probably turn out to be useful.
Some will probably be nonsense.
Some may look promising but have very little evidence behind them.

I want to know the difference.

And when I change something in my own life, I’m going to tell you what I’m doing, why I’m doing it, what the evidence actually says, and what happens.

No pretending I have all the answers.
No pretending something cures cancer when nobody knows that.
No selling false hope.

Just one man asking a very serious question:

If my life depends on it, what should I be doing?

And then doing it.

What cancer has already changed

Cancer has already changed my life in one very important way.

When I thought I was dying, I wasn’t thinking about my house.

I wasn’t thinking about my business.

I wasn’t thinking about the things I owned.

I was thinking about people.

My wife. My kids. My family. The people I love.

I started thinking about the stories they didn’t know. The things I wanted to tell them. The questions I wished I’d asked people who were already gone.

I wanted some way to leave more of myself behind than photographs and possessions.

That experience ultimately led me to create HoldUsTogether.com — a way for people to preserve their stories, memories and words for the people they love.

Something good came out of one of the most frightening nights of my life.

And now I want to see what else can.

Where things stand

I don’t know how this story ends.

That’s important.

I’m not starting this website after beating cancer and looking backward.

I’m living it right now.

There may be wonderful news ahead.

There may be difficult news.

I don’t know.

What I do know is that I don’t want to spend whatever time I have sitting on the sidelines waiting to see what happens.

I want to learn.
I want to change.
I want to test the things that are reasonable to test.
I want to ask better questions.
I want to become healthier than I was before cancer entered my life.
I want to seek God for wisdom.

And I want to share everything I learn along the way, because somewhere out there is another person sitting awake at 1:30 in the morning wondering exactly what I wondered:

What do I do now?

Maybe some of what I learn can help them ask better questions too.

And maybe you don’t have cancer at all.

Maybe you simply looked at your life one day and realized:

I need to start taking my health seriously.

You’re welcome here too.

I’m not promising that anything I do will cure my cancer.

I’m promising something much simpler:

I’m going to do everything reasonably within my power to give myself the best chance I can.

Because my life depends on it.

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I’m building this as I go. When I have research, clinical resources, expert conversations, and personal experiments worth sharing, I’ll put them here — with the sources and the strength of the evidence clearly labeled.

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